"Odd Girl Out"

I'm not sure if you're aware of this or not or if you've figured out that I'm a complete outcast ... Over the course of time, I've found this blog to be my comfort zone and a place where I'm accepted, outcast and all. I'm hoping my loyal readers have found comfort in this blog too, as it isn't only mine, but all of ours to discuss and explore without ridicule and judgment - I love all of you who have kept with me through all of the questions and the struggles that I've faced from the very beginning...

I have battled with being an outcast for as long as I can remember throughout my whole life ... I'm the girl that one looks to when there's nobody else around, somebody who they'll confide in, knowing that it's in my nature to listen but won't speak back. I'm a quiet gal who minds her business, and enjoys the simple things such as listening to tunes, reading and writing. I'm afraid to speak up, because the fear of saying something totally stupid intimidates me, keeping me quiet - Have you felt that way? I've been building walls around my heart for so long, it has become a Labyrinth, where for the longest time I've kept my innermost emotions hidden away and locked up for no one to see anything other than the smile that I somehow keep on my face. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever be able to fully open up to another person let alone a man, not until I've learned how to accept these scars and the events of the past, to eventually realize, that I have moved on.

The disadvantages of being an outcast are greater than one might think ... But, if you dig deep enough, you'll discover the valuable lessons inextricably linked to living with the label. You'll wind up being headstrong, considerate yet protective of yourself, thus more prepared for the challenges and obstacles of live than those who now laugh everything off and spit venom. All you outcasts out there, I need you to realize that "fitting in" is overrated. Although standing alone for the majority of time seems saddening and pathetic, you'll learn how to individualize and come into your own, truly finding yourself. You'll learn more, try harder at which you apply yourself to and if you can see the bright side of being an outcast, there's nothing you can't face...

"Virtuousness Of Innocence"

Here's a question for you ... Have your friends ever somehow decided for you you've spent too much time being single, that it's time to transition into a relationship with someone on their laundry list of individuals apparently "perfect" for you to date? Recently, mine have been doing this and won't seem to quit pestering me about my seemingly "awful" choice to lead a single life in this world as it stands. Outdoing the competition as far as this's concerned, is my great friend Ali...

 

Honestly, I'm not the least bit interested in seeing who she has picked out for me. The reasoning for this is simply because from what I have seen, her friends are complete assholes, and generally the crowd I run for the hills from and avoid at all costs (Mind you I remain single as I'm unready to put myself back up for grabs, due to accumulated past heartaches I still need time to recuperate from, and these individuals are the types out there solely to hurt you - They don't want a commitment, which provides me even less reason to go jeopardize my heart and time that could be spent healing, and developing a solid relationship with myself first which is the most important for everyone). She initiated all of her relentlessness because she believes I'm jealous of what she has with her boyfriend. Although I do want what she has at sometime in the future, I'm not ready right now and that's what she lacks to understand. Are you now beginning to see my problem?

 

Unfortunately she doesn't. She wants me to stop being so "innocent" and completely "closed off" ... Which isn't even the case and is what upsets me the most. I simply need time to sort things out, plus in my personal opinion, being single is great as it comes with fabulous perks of independence. If you're in my shoes at the moment, here's some advice - Don't cave into the pressure of it all, because if you're like me and you need to sort things out in your life before moving onward, time alone is most definitely your best friend. Living your life and fulfilling your needs comes before pleasing others and falling prey to their destructive criticism, if too much "innocence" is what you "have", then think of innocence as nothing other than a virtue.

"Complexion"

Forget the sun; the real center of the universe is beauty. I'm left here to question why this is. It seems that in this day and age, if you aren't Miss America, you can't find a guy who'll love you ... You'll rarely find a man eager to learn about the real you, the fabulous person that you are from within. Apparently, if you aren't the bombshell of the millennium, there simply can't be anything great about you to discover later on. First impressions are no longer about your intelligence, personality and wit, they are strictly about appearance and how you can model a pair of Daisy Dukes.

When exactly did men get together and decide that they won't settle for anything less than a giraffe with big huge breasts? However, I'm not trying to point these fingers at only the male population - We females do it too. Generally, we seek guys that have a big dick, expensive houses and also a top-earning job ... Discrimination is only a part of being human, ladies - I mean who would want a guy who has a small dick, lives in a shack and works at McDonalds? Obviously, we've all fallen victim to idealism and illusion. We all desire what we simply can't have or haven't been able to find yet ... Which leads me to wonder - Are the men and women of my generation going to ultimately settle for second and even third bests, or are they going to die looking for the prize?

We've all heard the saying "don't judge a book by it's cover" ... But, in the matters of relationships, who's going to take the time to read the book if the cover doesn't lure them into it? However, could you be possibly missing out on something that's great and valuable by not taking the time to explore it? I think it's pretty fair to say that "open-minded" = good; "close-minded" = bad - But, are we being too quick to judge judgement? Perhaps, judgement is not so much a snap decision, but more an early warning and detection device. If it is instantly clear that a person, place or even a profession isn't for you, is it better to ignore your better judgement reading between the lines ... Or, should you judge a book by its cover?

Things have changed so drastically over the course of time. It's all about greed and being set in your ways. Everyone you encounter is usually materialistic and superficial. It has become a sport to find someone who's caring and genuine in their approach. If you are not as pretty as the girl to your right, which one of you two is a man likely to hit on in the bar? The supermodel with a killer body and big blue eyes of course. Personality tends to mean squat - Especially when a perky pair of double d's is at your side. Which leads me to wonder ... When it comes to bags, men and suburbs, is it what's on the outside that counts?

If you're like me and have unfortunately fallen prey to being the "Odd Girl Out" in the matters of dating and relationships, ultimately having a great rack chosen over everything you have to offer to a man, don't feel bad. Add him to the list of dickheads and move on - When his big titty brigade does come to an end, and he's heartbroken when he comes to see that she's already married or has pulled some scummy move on him, that's retribution enough. Don't give up and don't shed a tear ... Prince Charming on the white horse is caught up at a detour, but he's coming.