"Deja Vu"

Recently, I've realized something ... My past has finagled itself into my present.
In the past, I had liked a man where the feelings weren't mutual. Thus, I got involved in the first relationship I could. Everything moved too quick there, and I've got scars I still carry today. With that, I had missed out on a possible relationship with a man I actually could've saw myself being with. Time had cast a spell, so I think that we weren't meant for the other.

I debated seein' a guy who had feelings for me, but I didn't for him.
After debating for a bit, I had refused. I wasn't going there again. Also, I've caught feelings for a different guy who has a girlfriend right now, but I'm hopin' for a shot with him sometime in the future. Given I'm reliving the past, it's not a bad thing! Eventually, I'm going to get an opportunity to be with an incredible man. Maybe, it'll be somebody new, maybe the guy I dig. Nevertheless, I'll be happy. He'll be worth everything I've faced and everything I've fought.

When Histories repeating itself, don't make those mistakes again ... You're given a shot to make a difference, do the thing you wish you could've done the first time around. When your past is present, don't freak out. Presents become pasts, bringing about futures with fresh and new opportunities.

"The Foreigner"

Hiya Suburbians, Let's delve!

I remember being a lil' girl who dreamt of exploring the world ... The lil' girl still lives on within the woman I am today. Recently, I traveled Europe. I saw England, Northern Ireland, Republic of Ireland, Scotland and Wales. Thank you to a friendly Student Travel Program in July I learned and witnessed History and Politics which was fabulous. But above all, I discovered something I had not expected to. I learned about myself.

The whole experience was indescribable ... An eye-opener definitely. I observed the people I was around, I observed their cultures and way about themselves. Enchanting, somewhat strange.

Now girls, I'm displeased to report I did not have a fling with a hot foreign guy ... Honestly, a 'lotta folks had struck me as a bit odd, but that's expected I guess. Given how I acted, the way I spoke, I was obviously an American. I felt I was being judged for that, but I'm aware quite a few of them aren't our biggest fans. Once suspected judgements settled in, I realized something I feel foolish for not realizing sooner, I was a foreigner. I was a foreigner there.

See, I was on their turf, visiting their homeland. I was something a 'lotta people had only seen on their TV's. A few actually had requested takin' pictures with me, a reallife American. I was exotic, new and unfamiliar to them...
...Some were nice, and some weren't. Thankfully, I was surrounded by friends, and we helped each other avoid any possible trouble.

I'm incredibly thankful I was apart of this Travel Program ... I discovered, I learned, and I witnessed a lot. I had a blast, I was safe, I was a gal with the prerogative to have a lil' fun. When you're given an opportunity, I definitely recommend you travel. It's enlightening, it's fun and it's mysterious. Definite horizon expander.

Lovelies! I'm back, and I'm better than ever. It's a big big world, stay fabulous for it!